It is only half a day and i feel half dead. hahah.... Seriously, i am so tired from lessons and setting exam papers. Later i have a series of consultations and my body seems to have a mind of its own of tiredness and aches. I really cant wait for the sem to come to an end which is next week cause after that will be exams and i ll have more time to rest. Physical health is affecting me and i am evualating my lifestyle and diet. Just doesnt make sense that i feel so tired with body aches. One factor could be the way i eat the past 1 year, stayed in hall with no fruits or soup and no exercise for (3 yrs) maybe my body is telling me that something needs to be done.

Did not have the best lessons today. Students have their own 'moodswings'. Some days they are like angels while some days they are little terrors. They dont mean harm but being children they are living in their own world and the whole world has to revolve around them.

I am stressed!! Thursday is my observation by my HOD and subject head and i dont really know what to do with my class cause i have finished teaching and now i am doin revision. Fearful that i wont do a good job and that i will be marked down. Yest was praying about this and was reminded of being faithful and doing my best. Growing in this area of faithfulness and being good stewards. It is a little hard when my workload suddenly increased to a full load teacher and with the setting of exam papers and all... i am tired and drained and would just have the tendency to do minimally. God recently revealed to me about this area of my life which i need to grow in and that it is a sin to not be faithful and give half-hearted work. I tend to be rather slip-short sometimes and now it is an effort to check through my work and putting in my best. Which means more time, effort and lesser work can be done. But i see the value and importance of this and so spent the whole of yest setting exam paper and checking through twice this morning and formatting it properly. I need to be faithful with the little things that has been entrusted to me and do my best for the audience of One. It is not easy and takes extra effort but i believe that God sees these things and that He will add on to me efficiency and clarity and bless me in my work too.

This morn on my journey to sch and during morn assembly. I just kept praying... kept praying. Just felt so unwell and tired and sianz of work that even before my day started, i just cant wait for it to end. Prayed for joy and for God to sustain me. Kept praying throughout which gave me the strength for my lessons and sustained me till now. Was also reading the passage of luke 1 and was reminded of the promises of God and His goodness (luke 1:67-80). God is my source my strength and only He can lift me up when my spirit feels down. Though tired, having my joy now :) Not the negative spirit or sianess... hahaha... but i cant wait for next week. :p

Certain things have been happening in sch which made me realised how impt it is to hear from God and to be equip with the WOG and to have wisdom to deal with things. Every word or deed has its effect and consequence. But the overarking theme is to trust and rely on God :)

 

Signing off at 1:05 PM