Feeling sad... I guess i am emoing and listening to sad songs does not help. hahah... Affected by some things and just feel a bit overwhelmed. Sometimes i wondered if i am really doing the right thing and i struggle when i need to put aside my rights and feel helpless like a fool in front of people. The only thing that i am encouraged by and keeps me going is that Jesus went through all these without complaining and who is He? He is Christ our Lord and Saviour.

Feeling very very tired and just feel like going to sleep and emo. haha... But i have work to finish. After cny visitation, came home to prepare my materials for tomorrow's teaching. Boil red cabbage and prepare lemon juice, vinegar, detergent and pure water, testing things out so that things wont go wrong tmr. After the whole thing i feel so tired already then went to take a nap. Now rushing my essay which is due on thurs.

haha... when i emo, many thoughts will come to my mind. Not negative thoughts this time :) Cause i went to God in prayer :) While praying, God just reminded me of how bless I am and he started reminded me of the different friends i have in my life who love me so much and God is loving me through them. Was reminded of this incident with mh. He was supposed to fetch me from hall with my stuff. While packing the room, we spilled something on the hall corridor and dirtied it. So I had to take a pail and mop to clean the corridor. He didnt complain, instead he gave me his slippers to wear cause i was wearing heels and he walked barefooted. It was really quite a mess and he helped me to carry the pail of water and mopped with me together. In the end, we were laughing and clearing up the mess and I was really thankful that he was there to help me. He is also a true friend who will protect me and stick by me. Thank God for blessing me with such a friend. HL always say that she cannot really understand our friendship :) haha... I guess it is because after going through many storms we have come to reach a neutral point of expectations and with God in the center of this relationship and we are constantly growing in God, tt's why this friendship can sustain. After 3 years, i think we have come to established a common trust and understanding. Thank you God for blessing me with this dear friend.

Blessed to have people around me who loves me and show me what it means to love sacrificially.

The other person is my sheep: GRACIA!!!! REally very blessed by this sheep in my life :) She really loves me as her shepherd. Though the beginning was tough but we made it through by the grace of God!!! REally thankful for her in my life, she never fails to surprise me with her love for me and the friendship that we have. Who says that you cannot be friends with your sheep? haha.. with God in it, all things are possible :) She is really someone who supports me through and through in every aspect from following me as a shepherd, supporting me as a faithful member, supporting me as a teacher and standing all my nonsense as a friend. Readily available when i need her and always go the extra mile to help me and is truly a faithful friend who sticks to you through ups and downs and through and through. Really blessed to have this sheep in my life :)

haha.. there are many others but will share another time ;) Now i am feeling more joyful le as i count my blessings and give thanks to God... haha... Time to chiong work le.

 

Signing off at 9:10 PM