Think my parents are really sweet :) There's breakthrus in the family and there is peace and joy within the family now. God has been working actively in my heart and the hearts of my family for the past 3.5 years :)

God started to do His work in me first whereby He taught me to love and accept my parents and sister as who they are and to exhibit unconditional love to them. To see them through the lens of God and to be that vessel and channel of God's love to them. Family and home was never something that i really treasured and valued cause of the many happenings that happened within the family. After God changed my heart and i started to change the way i view them and treat them, God started to do His work in their hearts too. Now, i love coming home :) I will miss my parents and my sister. I love my dad who is so fun to be around now. In the past, he doesnt really talk to us, he is the quiet type one. But now, he will joke with me, tease me and even express his care and concern for me.

My dad has been really sweet to me (my physical dad). haha... Before i go out he will ask me if i ve brought along my easy-link card and money. Though my dad can be quite hot-tempered but he has really softened alot over the past few years. I also learn to appreciate my mum's nagging and wont flare up at her already. Knowing that it is her way of showing care and love to me and growing to 'enjoy' her nagging at me. haha... Blissful :) Contented :) God is good to me and my family.

Now my parents wont persecute me about my faith le. Though they are not really happy about me tithing, but they have grown to accept this and they will tease me about my faith and joke with me. My mum will always tell my relatives that next time i will grow up to be a pastor, wearing a robe and holding the bible and going around sharing about Jesus. haha... funny ah. Then my dad will talk about Jesus himself to me and my relatives.

A few weeks ago, my relatives came to my house and suddenly we started to talk about christianity and other religions. It was quite amazing.... open discussion about Jesus and i was sharing about my faith and in chinese. Challenged manz... i felt so inadequate to share and was really quite clumsy in my sharing. haha.. there was no conclusion but i guess it opened their hearts to my faith and i believe there will be more of such opportunities. Now the question is: am i ready to share my faith in chinese and also address their superstitious and their own religion, buddhism.

Now i am worried about my little cousin who is in pri 3 now. He is getting more rebellious and his studies is terrible. I wanted to bring him to church but my uncle dun allow. Haiz... praying about this and i am trying to get my mum to help out :) haha.. and i think it is working. Though my mum isnt a believer yet but i can see that her heart is much softer towards God and my dad too.

On Friday, i was a little down so I went out for dinner with my parents. Parents will always be parents and they know me. My mum knew that something was bothering me and they were really nice to me that night. haahh... we went sun and moon to eat and i ate one whole set of sashimi alone and drank japanese sake. It was superb!! Then my mum tried to comfort me and then she started to nag at me again :) I was really touched by her gesture and her expression of love to me. Though it was abit hard for me to explain things to her and she couldnt really understand what i am going through but i appreciate her gesture. Home has become a place where God's love is found there and is shown through my parents and sister too :)

Recently my dad is really sweet!! haha :) Can really see how much he loves my mum, he always says that he loves my mum more than us. haha... weird, but i wont get jealous. haha... i feel so happy to see my dad treating my mum with such love and being sacrificial. My parents are quite old le and they have been married for 25 years already but they will go cycling together, my dad ll fetch her from work and will guide my mum in her work and life. My mum can be quite blur and silly at times and i think i take after her in this aspect, but my dad is like the 'wise' one who will offer her advises and tell her what to do.

I am thankful for what God has done in my family. This has been consistent for the past 6 months already and is in increasing measure. It is like the first time i feel so happy and blissful and so loved at home. I know that God is working and I am glad that i did not give up during the past few years when it was so hard to be home. In the past, there were times when i was really tempted to move out, persecuted cause of my faith and also cause of my attitude and heart towards them. Thank God for placing His love in my heart that i can love them and see them through His eyes. Thank God for working in the family. God is definitely not done here. My parents, sister and relatives are not saved yet. I am still praying for their salvation and I believe that God will continue to work in their heart and lives.

God has given me a wonderful family :) Though there are still ups and downs, but with God in my life and with His hand working in this family, all things are possible!I truly believe that God placed us in our family for His specific reasons and being he first christian in the household definitely has its reasons too.

Let's continue to be salt and light in our family and be the vessel of love to our loved ones around us :) Dun give up! Cause God is a God of miracles and of transformation. He is a God who can do anything and everything!!! All things are possible :)

 

Signing off at 12:29 PM