This season I really feel challenged in this area of ---- LOVE. As God pruned me in the areas of pride, insecurities and surrendering. God seems to be wanting to grow me in the area of LOVE and inner life purity in the next season. The past few weeks God has been revealing me the different aspects of His character through the WOG which led me to stand in awe of His love and Him (just finish reading Daniel which showed me the sovereignty of God and now Hosea...). God showed me what it meant to love Him with my heart and to worship and walk in the spirit daily with praise and thanksgiving in my heart even in the midst of struggles and uncertainties or problems. As i knew God more and fellowship more with Him, i found it easier to surrender my heart and life, found my inner being growing gradually and attitudes having small breakthroughs.

Then He challenged me in the aspect of translating this love that i have received and have in my heart to ppl practically. Never struggled so much and many times i found it much easier to just b comfortable and do what the sinful nature wants. But thank God for the HS and His word which leads and guides me to all truths. That's where loving God with the mind comes in and the WOG is so impt for me to cling on to, to show me what truly is right and pure and the reliance on the HS when i struggle and to give me comfort.

i think FEAR and insecurities are the key words that prevent ppl from loving people unconditionally. These two lead us to be inward looking and worry alot and make our love conditional, which leads us to hurt ppl in the midst of relating or push people away from us and prevent us from relating sincerely. It is only through Christ's love that we can love rationally and that is when 1 cor 13:1-7 becomes so real in our life. another passage which i am clinging onto is rom12:9-21.

Sometimes i wonder how much more and how much longer do i need to struggle in my life and how much more challenges. That sometimes i feel so weak and helpless. But it is the hope that Christ is coming back to claim the church and me and that we are all preparing ourselves to be a beautiful, holy and righteous bride for Him. This keeps me going on and also help me to see hope in ppl.

My current fav song is one life, one love (the chinese version).
"http://www.imeem.com/people/HzUpcS/music/sHRnQjle/city-harvest-church-one-life-one-love/"

 

Signing off at 9:05 AM