Think i too long never blogged, ve so many things i wanna blog abt and they r different :)

1) Thank God and this spiritual family. I need human blood for my fyp and my church brothers and sisters readily came down to help me. I m really touched and really appreciate their willingness to come down all the way to science and to help me. Though e instructions were not very clear and think it wasn't very fair to them, but they still helped me. Mich was poked three times and only the forth time then managed to draw her blood... eeerrrrrrr. I feel so blessed, not just receiving their help but when we were sitting in the room together and waiting for one another and just talking. I really feel overwhelmed by love tt comes from God. The r/s tt we ve thru christ and the community of love. Just feel so blessed by them :)

2) I m in the midst of thinking thru alot of things. Struggling with a no of things in my life and trying to make sense of them. It's prob gg to take some time and cant share now cause i m still in the process of figuring out some things. Just a state of confusion and trying to find some directions. Seeking God for ans too. Dun need to worry about me :) i m fine, just trying to make sense of things and thots...

3) Picking up running again... or trying to :) said tt since last sem but never go abt doing it at all. I m starting tmr, gg to jog at my house downstairs there's a river there and a nice jogging track :) next week wanna go jogging with ven :) wanna keep myself healthy and fit. I think it's really impt to take care of this temple :) Usually i wake up at six thirty so gg to reach sch at eight plus then start jogging (hee... start with 2-3 rounds first, then slowly increase. i ve not jogged for like 4 yrs already so totally no stamina at all sia) then bathe and ve breakfast with God :) so i ll do my qt during tt time. sounds cool? then go lab or go study :)I m gg to make sure tt this time these r not just empty words! LL see them come to past ! :)Also, i need a channel to vent out sia... so jogging can be a good way too.

4) Starting to feel stress and a bit overwhelmed. I ve been feeling like tt for 3 weeks plus already. But thank God for always being there and for refreshing me always :) God is the only ever constant being around, never changing. It is really silly if u place ur trust n hope in tangible things or things of this world, for these r things tt will never ever last. But God is the only constant source....

5) disappointed and feeling a bit hurt with some things in my life, still trying to understand them thru God's perspective and making sense of them. So currently lost and deep in thoughts. But still walking and kicking and still excited about serving God :)

6) just cleared 2 major assignments today and had a presentation. it was not too bad :) initially i was nervous, just felt very insecure though i prepared like alot already. I was the second one to prepare so during the first presentation i was just humming the song "none but jesus" in my mind then suddenly God just spoke to me: "just enjoy ur presentation, dun just see this as a tast to be fulfilled. Enjoy presenting what you have learned to the ppl here so tt they can benefit too. It's like teaching in cg and ppl. Not just seeing this as an assignment but with an attitude tt i wanna impact and impart to ppl the knowledge tt i ve gathered." I was like yeah man... this shd be the way :) So when i went up to present i felt like i was giving a speech on allergen, trying to engage them and went beyond just presenting but with an attitude tt really wants them to learn :)I enjoyed myself and though at the end i said something tt was really silly and the whole class laughed at me... hee... still not too bad la. Sometimes just wondered how come God made Calyn so silly ah... hahah.... sometimes just say the silliest and weirdest thing. Hmm... will grow from here ;)

7) i ve a break from now till 3pm before having a series of meet ups. Need to prepare 3 teachings for later :) May God anoint me and strengthen me!!!

 

Signing off at 1:12 PM