ve not blogges for quite some time already :) last week was a packed and hectic week for me. In fact it was the most choleric week for me. Had tons of ministry things to do and prepare, including my preparing for my presentation. Just doing one thing after another, my mind was constantly pre-occupied with things (planning, evaluating, brain-storming ...) never once did it had a break only wen i m asleep. haha.... the most task-orientated week and halfway thru i almost broke down already.

Talked to my frien who's in taiwan now (super long never talked to him) and he was sharing how much free time he has there walking in the garden and enjoying the presence of God and spending alot of quiet time with God and doing the things tt he likes such as music. oh man... i was envious and what happened? i became mel... (but for awhile only ... hee)thots started to flow thru my mind and i thot to myself, y my i so busy with doing all these things? why do i even ve to do all these things? i just wanna spend quiet time with God and i wanna do the things i like (go pub, watch movies, chill out n study n do my fyp...) why do i ve to serve god so hard and pour out so much of my time? i was hit hard by all these thots and i knew i needed to go seek God and prayed. So i put aside all the things tt i m doing and went for a walk around the sch with my mp3.

i walked to this place outside the chinese lib (stood at one corner, listening to hosanna) and the sky was beautiful. The sun was setting and the sky was a shade of darker blue with a patch of reddish and light. i was reminded of the glory of God and e vision i saw once regarding the coming back of jesus to claim me (His bride). Oh man.... then the song and the sky, i broke down...

Broke down cause i know tt despite my struggles to love Him with my all, God still loves me and He is always so gentle to me, pursuing me tenderly and faithfully. God is such a sweet lover man :) i responded to God to give my all to Him, to love Him with every being of myself: with all my heart, soul, mind and strength. The so-called sacrifices tt i made can never be compared to what Jesus had made for me, so who m i to complain and say i dun wanna give anymore. Humbled once again by God's love and His glory, responded to God and recommitted my heart and life back to Him then in my mind there was only 1 word : CHIONG! Chiong for God! For He is worthy of my every being.

I cannot express how good God has been to me. He truly accepted me despite my weaknesses and even use me as a channel to advance His kingdom. I am now all the more committed to give my all and my life to Christ and for Christ. Truly want to serve Him till the end and do His work.

In the end, i tide thru my week :) It wasnt a bad week after all :) Cause God constantly strengthen me and gave me the wisdom to do things. God was with me thru the whole week and i was never alone while i was serving Him with my all. It was a super fruitful week, i never knew i could handle so many things at once :)and without drying out. haha...

 

Signing off at 7:59 AM