I am in lab again.. waiting for my cells to be transformed.. haha... i ve six samples so really pray tt all 6 ll be transformed or at least 3 ba... see tmr ve colonies not :) if ve den i sat and sun must come lab, if dun ve den dun need to come but must redo. this time round must ve colonies :) ahahha...

Recently ve not been sleepin welll... thinking about alot of things. Overwhelmed by things in my life den wake up super early in the morning. ve to force myself to sleep cause i know i m tired.

Next week gg for LC camp, i feel so unsettled, like i cant leave things or ppl behind, though its only one week. Sometimes i feel maybe i care too much for ppl, but i shd care and feel for ppl rite? Even jesus wept, but now ve to learn how to deal with these things with God. I am less emo now already, able to function even wen i ve tons of burdens in my heart and thots in my mind. Able to find joy too in the midst of these things but some things are just there... Dun really know wat to do i am at a loss. Maybe God intends me to go for LC for a retreat and to be renewed. Ve been giving and pouring out to ppl, i m not dry but not overfilling too.

I pray tt i ll be refreshed. Need a fresh touch from God and visions! i feel so burdened and sad tt this is my last yr in NUS. My last year!!! I feel like there is so much things tt i can do and has yet to be done. Ppl i want to impact and grow and disciple. Though the heart is willing but i am loss, what exactly does God wants me to do here for this last one year? Though i ve NIE, but i do not know if God intends me to stay on in this ministry or is it in His plan... quite a bit of uncertainty. Thinking about doing masters too, but it's going to be very tough also. It's like working and though i m still on the ground but i'm not sure if i am being efficient. haha.. though there are many uncertainties but i believe tt God will guide be step by step. No point keep worryin about such things now, for God will lead me. Actually i m quite excited to go for LC, i believe i ll gain more insights and ve personal breakthroughs to prepare me for bigger things :)

One things tt i truly desire to do for God is to bring as many ppl to come to know Him in this last year. The uni ministry is the most exciting and rewarding time whereby u ve the luxury of time to share to ppl and build disciples for Christ. When u start working its really going to be quite tough...

Many thots ll just flood thru my head and emotions too when i think this is my last yr in NUS. i feel so thankful tt i ve come to know Him here and how God has seen me thru many difficulties, how God has been so gracious to me, pouring down His mercy onto me, how God has been by my side all these while and has never forsaken me, how he has grown and changed me. i can just imagine the kind of life i ll be living without God, the kind of values and mindsets tt i was holding onto would surely ve killed me. hahah..... u gotta know my past to know wat i m talking about (can view my past blogs)

Many thanksgivings to God and gratefulness to HIM. Currently all i wanna do is to serve Him with all my heart and do whatever tt God has placed me to do. My strongest burden is for ppl to come to know Him.

For those who are currently serving God in ur studies days, serve God with all ur heart, soul,, mind and strength. While doing ur best in ur studies and the things tt God has placed in ur life, also rem tt school days is the prime time to share to ur friends and peers and to make disciples for Christ. God place ya in specific schools with specific friends or peers for a reason. Nothing is by chance, make the best out of every single day tt u r living on Earth. Live as if u only ve 3 months left and think about what is important to you and how you can advance this kingdom for God. For nothing on Earth is everlasting, except your relationship with God and the souls of men. Live ur life such tt ur rewards are eternal, if not wats the point of pursuing them?

ahah... its a super long post, i ll be posting more often already. taking time to share my life with ppl and also as a form of reflection and expression here.

 

Signing off at 6:10 PM