i always like to update my blog like one in a few months... think i shd start updating more frequently.

i'm currently thinking thru alot of things in my life and around me, including ppl, values, God, giftings.... basically everything. Even the things i do. Questioning alot of things n trying to understand things at a deeper level. Think i m relearning quite a bit of things too.... i m a bit confused by some things, unable to find ans as yet but i believe God ll help me understand in His own timing...

Recently feeling rather inadequate and questioning how's my r/s with God. hahaha.... seems like a handful of things tt i m sorting out. I m a bit lost because overwhelmed by things but at the same time i m glad tt God is providing me with ppl. I make sense of things by thinkin thru things (taking long bus rides) or talking to ppl. Recently abit hard for me to pour everything out to ppl too.... and i m a person who needs to pour and share but a bit difficult currently, so its time to rely more on God.

Recently, i see myself in a new light.... many weaknesses and sins. Suddenly hit me full face. holy spirit remind me thru prayer, worship or His word and even thru ppl. See so many areas tt i need to grow in and work on tt now i m truly humbled. Feel so small but i know His grace is sufficient for me.

A period of pruning and testing and perseverance. Sometimes i wonder if i can take all these... how much more can i bear.... but i know tt God is faithful and He will not let us be tempted beyond what we can bear. Daily renewal in Christ is indeed impt if not think i ll just dry up and die... ahha... i really love hillsong latest song "desert song". it truly reflects how i feel but God is still God and because He is God I can still praise Him and walk on.

"i know i am filled to be emptied again, the seed i've received i ll sow".... this is how i am going to live my life...

 

Signing off at 11:26 PM