Friday, March 09, 2007
one hectic week

this past one week has been another rather hectic week for me. ve not taken a break since chin new yr tt week and so feelin a bit tired. hee... think i ve been studyin too hard. feel like taking a break and initially today wanted to go dye my hair red. i ve been saying this for the past 3 weeks but just simply couldn't find the time to do it. next week after my test i m gg to dye my hair. haha... but later st crop up again den cant go again. maybe its god's way of tellin me to save money ;)

though tired n hectic, this week has been a fruitful and blessed week for me. Fruitful cause i find myself more disciplined and focused. Hee... planned out a whole list of things to do and managed to complete more than half:) God has been sustaining me thru all these, giving me strength and His word has been encouraging me thru this time.

The comp center is now like my 2nd home. i m permanently park here fr morn till night already. think its really a very good place to study and now i m free from youtube. horray!!! so happy. when i m at home i tend to delay my time and will often start doin work quite late and give myself excuse to rest and slack. But being stuck here in the comp center is really a good thing, cause i cant go watch tv or find a comfotable bed or sofa to slack.

now my form of 'break' or when i need to refresh myself is thru the word of god. i m very excited, ve been discovering alot thru His word. No matter how many times i read the same passage or verse, it never fail to encourage me and give me new insights of application into my life and the char of god. hee... living with god and letting the holy spirit lead your life is indeed an exciting one. can't wait for prayer's meet later. hee... the last time i experience breakthru of faith (having faith in god). this time i go with the anticipation of experiencing god intimately and to hear from Him later. Cause being intimate with God is st my heart desire :)

haha.. i m blogging cause i m taking a break. just watched a singapore documentary video "diminishing memories" and after this gotta start on my essay already.

oh ya... ve many thanksgiving points this week. ve been feeling stress and lost because of a review paper and the lack of time. Really thank god for wisdom and for sustaining me. My health is not really good this week, so ve been feeling very tired. However, the energy and strength i ve this week to finish my work is indeed amazing. hee... so really thank god for it. this week god also spoke to me about trusting in Him again. feeling panicky again den god reminded me tt He is just beside me, guiding me and holding onto me.

haha... i thank god for the past 2 hectic weeks cause it is thru all these tt i really learn to rely on god for strength and to start my day, start on my work with god. Not to rely on my own strength but on Him. Last week i managed to finish an essay within 1 day. This is st i can never do on my own, cause my essay writing skill is terrible and my ideas flow super slow one. But last thurs when i wrote my essay, i felt peach in my heart n ideas just flow one after another. Feel so excited!!! haha... Thank you God :)

this morning, i was listening to a sermon by Ravi. he shared a story which made me think alot. there was this christian family who was brutally murdered by someone. the whole family including the father and children were killed. the only one left was the mother. when the murderer was caught, she appeared on tv and appealed to the mass to forgive the murderer. Den Ravi went on to say tt she stood tall with the grace and love of God. when i heard this, i thought to myself. if someone kill my whole family, will i be able to forgive the person? the ans is no. I can never do tt. den this silly thot came to my mind. they r my closest kin so tt's e reason i cant forgive the murderer but god shd be able to because they r not His kin. den another realisation hit me, god created EVERY SINGLE ONE of US!! we r HIS CHILDREN!! Not merely kins but CHILDREN!! God is able to forgive us (sinners), able to forgive murders, able to forgive those who truely repent and acknowledge Him. God forgives me. This is how great God's love is. So this morning, while i was on e bus, i was truly struck by the extent of God's love and how gracious He is to us. I find it hard to extent such love to ppl and i cant c myself forgiving n loving a murderer (esp one who kill my family), but this is a path i want to grow in. To be christ-like would mean forgiving and loving them. It's gg to be a long way for me, but i will never give up and another prayer point for me. God help me to grow in love. Grow to love like u do.

its currently 1.30pm now. comp center is closing at 4pm so i m gg to start on another essay now. I m starting to enjoy writing essay. thot abt quitting USP since last yr already cause too busy. den this week i was suddenly struck by a weird thot: if i quite USP, i will definitely miss writing essay. hee... so ve to pray n think thru more about USP.


 

Signing off at 12:54 PM