1st day of sch n it started off with a test... it didn't go well
only got 10 our of 20 mcqs... was really disappointed. my heart
totally sank when e lecturer revealed the results. it was like every
mistake was stabbing at my heart and i was like oh no.... i m
dead....

my fav subject somemore biochem... spent the whole week muggin for
it and didn't do anything else. cause i really wanted to score in
this... after my test i was like god y didn't u bless me, was really
disappointed and i felt really sad and was suddenly v sensitive to
every little thing aroung me... not good sia...

just now i was reminded of st... tt i shd trust god in all
circumstances, God doesn't make mistakes and all these happen for a
reason. though i dun know e reason now i was reminded of this
passage i did during qt. gen 31. this is a passage on jacob and how
god has protected and kept him safe thru out. though there were many
ups and downs in his life, god has been watching over jacob.

i started off this sem telling god n myself tt i want this sem to be
a spirit-filled and led semester. but how can i experience god and
be spirit led if i dun fully trust god? Although wat i see in front
of me are setbacks, i believe that god will not shortchange me and
that He will life me up in due time. all i ve to do is to be humble
and patient while doing my very best and be faithful in every little
thing tt god has entrust me to do.

Recently ve a breakthru with my sis, she's now comin to nus to mug
with me. really wanna thank god for this... god knows my worries and
my desire. my sis is a christian but sort of backslided, dun really
know where she is now. But i pray that we can serve god together. My
greatest desire is for my family to serve god together in hope
church and praising god together and reading His word together. This
is my monday 'blues', an interesting day :)

i m also having more fun with my sis now. it has been a very long
time since we talked. we had a 1 yr cold war last yr, though things
got better after i know christ but there was still a barrier btw us.
So now prayin for God's grace to be with me, praying for wisdom to
guide my sister and love for her. hee... oh ya.. and gentleness too.
i m really v harsh to my sister, ve to learn to be stern in a gentle
way. i dun know how... but with god nothin is impossible :)

 

Signing off at 10:38 PM