Saturday, June 24, 2006
A real teacher :)

I almost forgot to blog this down... haha...i m now really a teacher :) Almost a teacher... hee

I started teachin in a tuition centre 2 weeks ago. Teach sec 1 and sec 2 science. Its really v challengin n a totally new experience for me cause i ve never taught in class before and i even need to set test n exam papers, prepare lessons n notes.

Intially I found it rather tedious n v time consumin, cause need to prepare notes, ppt slides n worksheets. But after one week, i got used to the work load and could work faster already. Cause i ve already got e format and layout for the lessons.

Hmm... my 1st lesson was 11/6. I reached there super early n my stomach was filled with fluttering butteries wen i was on e bus. Was so scared, nervous n worried. haha... i rem i kept prayin n prayin on e bus, asked God to gif me strength cause this is my 1st time n i m v nervous. Den i was reminded tt God is a God of peace, stength n comfort n He is my shepherd n my helper. I shall not be afraid... :) After prayin, I felt calm n was thinking logically... haha... not so panicky anymore. I rem reachin there at 9.15am wen my lesson starts at 10am n the tuition centre was not even opened... haha... so i had to wait n the waitin period was really makin me edgy again.. haha... so i just kept talkin to God n told Him abt my fears of not being able to be a good teacher n impart the knowledge i ve to them logically.

Finally the time has come... thank God, my 1st lesson was the sec 2 science class n the class on tt day had only 4 ppl... It really served as a warm-up session for me sia. Adjustin to this new setting n tryin my best to win the students' trust n respect. Initally they were super quiet n just sat there listening to me. So i told them to speak up n ask me qns whenever they ve doubts. Told them not to be afraid to make mistakes cause we r all here to learn. haha.... n they really did open up, by the 2nd lesson they were already shootin me with 1 qns after another. haha... Though its tiring n drainin in terms of physically (esp my voice) n mentally, i had lots of fun teachin.. i m serious. I m lovin every min of it. It's really challengin n rewardin n fun n blah, blah, blah. hee...

So from 10 -11.30am is the sec 2 science class, after tt from 11.30 to 1pm is another sec1 science class. Initially i really had a hard time. Ask them qns nobody ans, its as if i m tokin n entertaining myself. Nobody laughed at my jokes n they seemed to be in their own world. Was quite demoralised durin e 1st lesson (was so affected by it tt i could feel myself trembling with fear n panic n i could feel my voice tremble). Realising wat was happenin to me, I said a short prayer in my heart n asked God for strength n courage.Really lacked courage at tt point, was v fearful of the kids. haha... never handle so many kids in my life b4. To make things worst, there was a gp of boys, 3 of them, who were super noisy n rowdy. They seemed to be in their own world n seemed v uninterested. I was deeply hurt n insulted but i perserve on with the renewed strength from God. They were also comparin me with their ex- tutor sayin tt she was more fun to be with. Finally, the 1.5 hr of lesson was up... i was so drained tt i barely had any energy to walk to the bus interchange. It was my 1st experience with a class of 11 sec 1 kids sia... Things improved greatly on the 2nd lesson (thank God), they listened to me n were more enthu abt lesson n they even ans qns n laughed at my jokes. hee... Something which i ve learnt from the 1st lesson with them is tt, i ve to find ways to capture their attention n must be v animated n interestin. The most impt thing is tt i ve to gain their respect n the only way to do tt is to prove to them tt i know wat i m teachin n tt i m qualified to teach them. During the 2nd lesson, i explained alot n tried to make things v clear to them. Used ppt, diagrams, drawing, real life situations n even myself as examples. haha... after the 2nd lesson with those kids, there is only 1 conclusion... i had fun teachin n interactin with them. These kids r really v youthful n child-like.

It has been quite some time since i taught pri sch n lower sec students. Now all my students r older (young adults), wen i interact with them is v different. We tok abt sch, family n BGR n our relationship is more serious n mature ba :) Still learnin how to interact n handle kids, but i m enjoyin every min of it. After e 1st lesson, i walked out of the centre lookin like a dead fish... After e 2nd lesson, i walkedout of the centre feelin refreshed by their youthfulness n with a big smile plastered across my face. The change in the way they reacted n response to me reallly warmed my heart n affirmed my ability as a teacher.

My greatest worry b4 i went for lesson is tt: i lack the ability to be a good teacher n tt i wont be able to interact n communicate with them well. But everything went well n i really thank God for givin me this opportunity. I really thank God for being their for me constantly wen i needed Him :) Really hope tt I can be a good n responsible teacher n tt my students ll be able to understand my teachin n learn to treat me as a frien :) Later is gg to be my 3rd lesson with these kids n i gotta go slp liao...

Feelin stressed that i need to set exam paper for sec1 science n ans key. So tt other teachers can also mark n this exam paper i set, ll be used by two other tuition centres.. stress lei... if never set properly ... cham... haha... Though ll worry... also learnin to rely n trust God more. Since He gave me this opportunity, I believe tt He ll see me thru everything. Regardless of the outcome, I know He is with me n everything is happenin for a reason n accordin to His plan. Do your best n God will do the rest :) In whatever u eat, drink n do, do it all for the glory of God. So ve to do my best in this wor n cannot slack or half - hearted work... haha..


 

Signing off at 11:54 PM